What teaching, taught me.

When you go into a place to teach you will always leave having learnt more, this is one of the biggest things that i have taken away from my time teaching in Samoa. When i was planning on doing this teaching outreach heading back to Aus and going to one of the islands was not what i has planned but it was exactly where i needed to go. While i was there i met some amazing people and got to teach the word of God to 100s of people.


If you had told me that before i would go that i would be teaching to a packed church that had people overflowing into the street and that people walking by would stop to hear me teach i would not have believed you. I would have said something like "that cant be possible, i don't have anything that important to say" and the reality is i am right. i do not have anything to say but God does all i have to do is speak his words. I have done some amazing these of the past 4 years and i am constantly asking myself if this is real life this is due to the fact that there is no way any of this should be possible. I don't have the
expertise of the experience to warrant teaching so many but God does.

I got some amazing experiences on this trip and met some amazing people who changed my life. This trip showed me just how much God will use the pain of the past to shine his glory. I got the opportunity to teach the book of Job in a bible school teaching them just how good God is even when everything is falling apart and knowing that I can say that no matter what God is always good. actually the word good is no where near close enough to describe it. If we use to the word good to discribe God then it cant be used to discribe anything else not a house, a car, not even friends and family. Nothing can even compare to God and yet he gives us so much, so much that we take for granted.

This is the reality there is nothing that we can do, nothing that we can give up that can even come close to what God has done for us. He gave up his own life so that we can did and all he asks for us is everything. To me that is not that much giving up death for life is not a hard choice to make. But what about the smaller things its easier to give up the big things we can easily count the cost when choosing to follow God, for example i know that being a missionary means leaving my family and i will miss so much because of it. If you truly want to follow God then you have been called to live no longer in the world that the fleeting joys that this world can give us are nothing compared to God so why do we keep chasing them.

Traveling the world i have seen many different countries met 1000s of people and 1 things is always the same they all have love their part of the world more then others. Its only natural right? To love the place you grow up to be proud of where you come from? Yes you should be very proud of where you came from but the reality is that you don't come from where your passport says, we come from God. heaven is our home and there is nothing and nowhere on the planet that even comes close to that so why do we keep giving up heaven to have earth? During this trip i asked a group of 20 young people i was teaching what is the cost of following Christ? For some the cost is high for some it is life for some it is family and friends, money but here is the real question. What is the cost for not following Christ? There is nothing we can give up no cost we can pay that will even come close to the cost of not following him. This is the closet to hell that us as Christians will ever get, but this is closest to heaven that non Christians will ever get. That is why i do what i do, no matter how hard it gets i know that this life is so short compared to eternity so what ever suffering we feel here does not even come close to the eternal glory.

God deserves everything that we have to offer all we have to do is say yes and be willing to pay the cost and while it will be hard God is with us so it will always be worth it. I honestly don't know if this makes any sense i kinda just started typing and this is what came out so i hope it makes sense. This is what i do know, God is so much better then anything of this world and there is nothing on this planet that can ever compare to God, so why do we keep chasing the fleeting pleasures of this world? God knows us and he knows our hearts and he does not leave us, chase him and there is nothing that will compare to what he will give you and even if all we get out of it is out salvation then that is way more then we deserve.

I'm always leaving.

The adventures when you follow God are the best you will ever have, no matter what dreams you have, the plans you have made when you live for God His plans, His way will always be better. This is the life i have chosen and to chose it all i had to do was say yes, say yes to living his way not mine but what does this mean?  

These days it seems i am always leaving somewhere and no matter how much i want to be in the place i am going, i never want to leave. Saying goodbye is always so hard leaving is always going to suck because the reality is you never know if it will be the last. This is what happens when you travel when the term "Home" can be many difference places. 

I know where my home is and right now there are people i love very much waiting for me there but for now i am here on earth and while i know my home is in heaven that does not mean we don't get a taste of it down here. That is what i think we call home that feeling of belonging that we get when are in the presence of our Lord so the taste of it we have down here is nothing compared to what we will have. 

So what do you do when there are many places that to you feel like home? That when you go to one you are leaving the other? well in my opinion, you say yes. You follow the one who created it all the one that gave us "home". Gods plan is way better then our His ways are so much better and while this will never make leaving easy Jesus is worth of it. There is nothing we can give up no cost that there is that will ever be more then what God has done for us what he is worthy of our everything. Even if that means leaving. Leaving our old lives behind and following him wherever he send us. 

(All these pictures where taken in places that feel like home, most of which i would not have if i did not say yes)

No, i am not okay.

                                           Its been a year and i miss him more everyday. <3 

It has been 1 year since i last talked to my little brother to share my day with him, to hear about his and make silly jokes that no one but us would understand. When i lost him and his twin the storm clouds seemed like they would never end. while i still hide a lot of pain behind a smile it has been in this pain that i have learnt a lot and most of what i have learnt has still come from my little brother. 

He had a faith that changed lives everyone he met was changed and his life just screamed Jesus and that is how i want to live. While i have really struggled over the last year and still do i have never lost my faith in God, in His goodness and faithfulness. While i might be falling apart He is and always be faithful, He has never left me so why would i ever leave him. This has been one of the biggest lesson i have learnt that no matter what life can throw at us God is always bigger and he is always with us. 

These are my amazing grandfathers who have both gone to heaven in the last few years. 

We are not promised a tomorrow, so why do we put off living until later. There is this hope that i have been able to hold onto over the last year and that is that all those i have lost in the past 2 years i will see again i know exactly where they are, in the arms of our loving savouir. What about those that do not have that hope. How can they go though lose without it and how can we as a body of Christ not go out there and change that. We have the best gift that we can ever have and we need to share it with the world. 

This is the biggest lesson i have learnt out of the many many and it is in many ways i am not okay and the biggest thing I AM NOT OKAY with is that there is many people in this world that have never heard the name of Jesus and that is not okay. We can not be content with this and we need to fight with ever breathe we have we need to show the world this hope that we have because we do not know when we will be going home to the arms of Jesus. While we are hear we need to fight, fight ageist the world and what it throws at us and shout the name of Jesus. There are to many people in this world that are hurting and don't have any hope we need to show them. I can't wait to party it up with my brothers in Heaven but i want that party to be huge so until then i will tell everyone i can about the Love and salvation that come from Jesus.